oouch, suddenly feel so lost.

i know my way,

but there are literally many things to be considered.

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hmmm..

Happy by Leona Lewis

Happy - Leona Lewis

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oBiTJ1nfCto

Verse 1:

Someone once told me that you have to choose

What you win or lose

You can't have anything

Don't you take chances

Might feel the pain

Don't you love in vain

Cause love won't set you free

I can't stand by the side

And watch this life pass me by

So unhappy

But safe as could be

Chorus:

So what if it hurts me?

So what if i break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge

My feet run out of ground

I gotta find my place

I wanna hear my sound

Don't care about all the pain in front of me

Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah

Just wanna be happy, yeah

Verse 2:

Holding on tightly

Just can't let it go

Just trying to play my role

Slowly disappear, ohh

But all these days, they feel like they're the same

Just different faces, different names

Get me out of here

I can't stand by your side, ohh no

And watch this life pass me by, pass me by

Chorus:

So what if it hurts me?

So what if i break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge

My feet run out of ground

I gotta find my place

I wanna hear my sound

Don't care about all the pain in front of me

Cause i'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

Bridge:

So any turns that i can't see

I'll count on a stranger on this road

But don't say victim

Don't say anything

Chorus:

So what if it hurts me?

So what if i break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge

My feet run out of ground

I gotta find my place

I wanna hear my sound

Don't care about all the pain in front of me

Outro:

I just wanna be happy

Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy

I just wanna be, ohh,

I just wanna be happy

目标.

还以为预试的惨况,
会让我反省一下..
可是到头来,
还是提不起劲来..
明知道自己不是天资过人..
明知道自己没有过人天赋..
究竟何时才能,
真正的, 认真的,
去翻阅一本书..
><
唉..

加油吧朋友!

下个星期, 要实践诺言!! zz

book keeping, add maths, sejarah, 我会打败你们的!
bahasa malaysia, english, 华文, 我不会让自己遗憾.
science, mathematics, ekonomi, moral, 我一定会尽力而为..

我知道,
我要的是什么..

:)

time.

i guess there are too many things to be considered.
i even doubt if i have chosen a good way to go on.
everything around is just so unfamiliar and strange.
but, i don't have much time.
i still can't untangle a plot.
i'm just so unsure of myself.
somehow,
i feel so exhausted.
hours by hours, days by days..
i know,
there's a terminal section.

maybe i'm just a fake.
a swindler who wears a mask,
roving around, playing around.
i thought,
it's obvious, and so apparent.
but, maybe...
it is not.
it's just somewhat ridiculous.

i try to apologise,
but you don't want me anymore,
not even listening a word from me.
leaving me here, all alone,
in such a cold and darkness.
i'm sorry,
for the proud i was.
for the selfishness i did.

i'm tired of,
wandering,
awaiting,
and hoping,
things that can't be actualised.

i'm defeated..

Peace Please.

Please take away all my yesterdays.

Please take away all my broken dreams.

Thank You.

I highly appreciate.

有些事情,有些东西.

第一次相遇是偶然
第二次相撞是缘分
第三次
却总缺少这种运气.

珍惜每一次的那一次.

那么深刻的烙印,
虽然永远都不会发生,
只是,
偷偷占据心里的每一寸缝隙.



有些事情,有些东西.....

.

这感觉很奇妙
不晓得为何
不同的梦境
不同的方向
却
那么地相似


多渴望
那是现实.


会永远记得.

只是, 一些小事.

或许我没有那种天份,

只让那沉睡的梦持续着.

还以为都是梦呢?

又怎么会忘了呢?

原来那微笑,

是真的.

不知不觉都已忘了.

不晓得从何时起, 那记忆已渐渐褪色.

还是都已成为了习惯?

任性的握在手中.
任性的占据回忆.
任性的坚持相信.

突然间觉得,
都已不重要了.
也许只到此而已,
就是如此而已.

请离开.
点到即止.
一切都够了.

整理了电脑相库的照片,

那回忆聚集的堡垒.

突然间, 有种感慨的冲动,

荡漾在波动的情绪.

那夜深人静的夜晚,

与歌声的邂逅.

大道上,

缠绵的灯光雾气,

只有五个未成年的死党,

在漫步喧哗着.

依稀记得,
那精美修饰的圣诞树,
那坐满小孩的电动小火车,
那一个午后,
谁说过的什么话.

再也烹调不出

那种的味道.

只是简单的

把水泡开,

倒入

味精,面条,鸡蛋.

却再也找不回

那深刻的

深邃的

味道.

有谁知道,

这是我吃过最好吃的

快熟面.

这是

那么的不可思议.

淡淡的灯光,

淡淡的回忆,

淡淡的怀念.

那一次的旅途.

有谁会记得那悬挂的美丽?
或许早已忘掉.
却
捕捉了我小小的
心.

再给我两分钟, 让我把记忆结成冰.

感谢大海和天空
总是给我无遐想象.

只是, 一些小事.

漫不经心的,
徘徊着.

寻找.